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C.MYour smile makes me melt in ways
that I've only imagined of; haunting
my nights with the midnight ticking
of what your musical lips whispering
a lullaby to me.
A mystery that that keeps me on
the edge of wanting more each time
that I see you; to figure out everything
about you, to see that you are human
just like I am.
Your name pops into my thoughts while
the streets are full of darkness
that sends the winds to blow the coldest
storm man kind has ever known of. The
ice wraps around my body like the flames
on the sun.
Ponders of thoughts of your sunny lips
begin to make my winter lips thaw out;
from the glaze that fell upon my body.
I hold on to the thought that you and
me could be together like the moon
and the stars.
Letting goThe ink flows through my pen like
the emotions coursing through my body.
Freedom; free as the birds flying
dearly in the sky, at a depth none of
us would imagine in a million years.
How their feathers let the wind take
a hold of their wings; letting go
of the fact that at any moment they
could fall to their death, not
being able to control their gliders
because they forgot to learn that
sometimes you can't let go of
something important to you.
No matter how much you so desperately
want to; not having a care in the
world what will happen but in the end
you always will care for that most
important thing in your life; even more
so when that important thing was the
one that you wanted to be with.
Fragile HeartI don't want to be alone in this
room, full of my thoughts storming
around me like a tornado that keeps
on twirling around and around; making
it so hard for me to breathe, trying
not to let the air get sucked out from
My demons try to seep out; trying so
hard to keep them from coming out
to play with my reality. Desperately
struggling not to let my emotions
come to involved with the darkness
that creeps around at night.
I'm striving to run away from the
wreak that's about to explode
before my very eyes; to save myself
to not get hurt like all the other
time that I tried to stop the bomb
from going off.
For once I can beat it from going
off but it catches up to me before
I knew it; pushing me down into
the dusty, gritty sand, scrapping
all the innocence that I had left
Trying painfully trying to pick
myself up from the raw, microscopic
rocks that I peeled my knees in.
If only I just went along with this
baneful cycle of hurt and pain
because, I wouldn't be in this mess
ForeverLooking into your eyes; your soul, I know
that one thing is for certain; forever.
I want to spend my life with you
forever and ever, even after we die and
gone to heaven I still want to be with you
forever because to have someone like you
in my life is all I ever wanted as a little
girl; you have completely made me the
most happiest person that I've ever been in
the longest time.
Your my soul mate that I don't want to ever
want to live without knowing that I've
found you. I want you to hold me in your
arms endlessly, never letting me go because
I feel so secure and toasty to have your arms
wrapped around my waist; having your lips
gently press on my cheek and slowly work your
way down to my lips all the way to my neck,
how sweet the kisses feel on my skin.
A blitz feeling starts to works it's way into
my veins. I put hands on your back feeling all
the muscles and bones that you have; how
muscular your back feels, it sends adrenaline
to my brain, I begin to kiss your lips softly.
Goodbye Brown EyesI don't want to let you go; to never get to taste your lips
on my lips, to see you smile and to know that I'm the
reason for that your smiling that one of a kind curl on
your lips, to not write these romantic poems that I use
my imagination to have these ideal thing that would
happen to us if we were together.
In the end I begin to realize that I wasn't the one that
you want to have in your life that you rather have her
instead; I'm not going to lie and say that it doesn't hurt
at all to know you like her because we both can see in
watering eyes and off-tone pitch that I was wounded in
this battlefield of love.
To erase every single feeling that I had for you is going
to be the hardest for me to do because I some how
still believe that one day that I will be yours but I know
I'm just going to hurt myself to keep thinking these
unhealthy, scaring thoughts that are just going to
disappoint my hopes.
I learned in love that sometimes letting go is the
hardest thing to do especially when yo
One nightOne night, I can be with you.
I don't have to look at the moon
anymore; hoping that you will be
looking too. The stars dance
around the moon like all those
other girls do, because they want
to be with you.
Envy begins to the poison that
sets into my veins; how any of
those girls could make you feel
like you've found the one but I'm
just going to be that girl that
sits on the side wishing that
you could love me.
You won't even know anything about
me but, I know so much about you,
my dear. The way that you smile the
definition of happiness, to the way
your voice plays a symphony that is
I begin to fall in love with you
all over again, like I did before.
Nothing could make me feel so safe
and warm in a cocoon except for you;
looking at me with those blue eyes
that are brighter then the ocean
itself making it jealous of you.
In my HeartMy waist becomes needy for your
arms to latch on to it; feeling
your heat crawling all over my
body, leaving me in awe.
I begin to get additive to the
sound of your voice; how each
tone turns into this soundtrack
that I start to replay over and
over in my head, when it's three
in the morning.
I knew that if I fell asleep, I
would lose that melody because
when I wake up you won't be there
to comfort me, when my nightmares
become my reality that the stars
have gave me.
I was only a daydream away from
you; even though I couldn't touch
you skin and look into your ocean
blue eyes, I somehow realized that
you were in my heart.
Hopes kills UsHopes have killed us. They make
you believe something so wonderful
is going to happen to you but,
in the end it doesn't.
Leaving you to cry your heart
out; putting you to misery at
your worst. You being to lay on
the dark, raw ground with your
heart bleeding out; with the knifes
that hope left in your heart.
Ti AmoTi Amo, those are words that I
mutter under my breath. It's crazy
how much I love you; I thought about
you with each tick the clock's hand
With each stride I took everything
inn my life began to fall into
place,except for you; a stubborn piece
that you were not wanting to fit.
I didn't want to let you go because
you were the one person that I wanted
in my life.
Months go passing by right before my
eyes, I realize that I didn't want
you in my life anymore; the stress
for me to be this perfect person was
something I didn't want to deal with.
Ti Amo, how those two engrossing words
could mean I love you in a language
with such an elegance that could rip your
heart from the disappearance of that
sweetness not being said to you ever again
from that one person that meant everything.
I Tear My Skin AwayI Tear My Skin Away
I tear this skin from my body,
Even if the world screams,
That I am only an illusion.
I tear the bones from my legs,
Through pain, I will grow,
Through suffering, I will become.
I rip the muscles from my arms,
These teeth from my jaws...
And with nothing upon me,
I carry on...
Like a broken puppet, still shivering,
Still forcing its way through the darkness;
I tremble for I am nothing...
And yet, I am moving. My voice still screams...
I draw breath into these tired lungs,
As I rip the flesh away...
And I shatter these mirrors before me,
With a voice that will not break:
Because the world cannot label me as nothing,
And I will live for my own sake!
"So tell me, is that all the pain you've got for me?"
I screamMy scream is loud.
My scream is honest.
My scream is desperate.
My scream is filled with truth.
Why would nobody hear me?
dearly belovedthese days
your name has been slipping
in and out of my rib cage
my heart forgets to beat.
how even after all these months i still
don't want to believe that
you're dead. how during the
first couple of weeks i prayed
to a god i didn't believe in and begged to know
if death tasted sweet to you. how once,
when the monsters in my head
didn't let me sleep, i
wrote you three poems and then
you were a supernova that
lit up my life for
a few radiant moments before,
like all good things in this
you came to an end.
the sinner in me hopes that you have wings now.
but i think that,
most of all,
i hope you no longer
remember what pain
Those Green Eyes (Or: Don't Lie to Your Kid)Those green eyes -
The green of joy
The green of hope
The green of love and acceptance -
Were always full of lies.
They first lied when I said,
After a nightmare at four am
When I was too small to reach a light switch,
“Will you ever leave me?”
And those eyes said,
Why did those green eyes
Shut when I needed them most?
"Are you okay?"
Would be a red line
That I would etch into myself
Those green eyes melted.
Those green eyes did shine
And I knew what it was -
I was young, not stupid -
But I indulged the lie,
For those green eyes.
"Will it get better?"
I asked one sunny Saturday
At ten in the morning
And those green eyes looked away;
“And you’ll be here forever?”
There were no words.
I made up my own affirmative.
Those green eyes -
When they saw
How I’d rubbed myself raw
notes on a matchbook love.if I were the type
to say how I really felt,
I'd tell you that
I hope you choke on your apologies
like they're arsenic
and your nails are already
with the poison.
I'd let you know
that I'll never be a body
for you to touch
just because I know that's all you want.
I'll never be a fairy in a bottle
at your waist.
this is no storybook, and
I am no myth.
hear my silence,
feel the cold absence
respond to your weak "I'm sorry"s.
I beg you,
stop digging the hole,
stop, just stop.
Hush and watch the flames
engulf the image you sold me.
you can tell me
I'm beautiful as much
as you want,
but I know that it's not enough,
that you'll always want more,
that you've been a wolf
between my legs all this time
and my fingers are bruised
from holding the leash.
now every time you whisper
"please be okay",
I will always tell you that
I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine.
I will forever pretend
that I've grown up from you,
that I've become a mystery
Wrists.Wrists are not made,
To be cut up by cold blades.
Blood was meant to stay in your veins,
Not to be drained.
From your body,
You're stronger than that,
I know a person can only take,
Until they break.
And you have your doubts,
And when you lay in bed,
The pain is all you think about.
But you're so much more,
Than your heart aches.
So much more,
Than your demons.
Even if you feel,
Like your dying,
And you are through with trying,
Because all you've been doing lately is crying.
I want you to know,
That no, you're not alone.
And you re going to survive.
Please just drop your knife,
Because you're going to,
Make it out alive.
words, wonderlight has faded and words are heavy,
but there is a delicate magic
twisting between your fingers.
it is all a-scribble
melisma without music;
syllables stitching terra firma
to firmament in intricate
stanzas that require
neither breath nor sound
to echo, infinite,
within the depths
of susurrous souls.
it is cold and it is dark,
but there is a fire in you
and you use it with a fierce grace
that illuminates the shadows,
and ignites the demons
until not even the grey spaces
that haunt and harry
can hold dominion.
they are exposed
they are broken
into shards of sunrise
and rays of a quiet
you scare away the night
with exhalations that blow
away the fogged emptiness
inside, over and over,
sparking fireworks from
what was thought
to be ash.
What is Hope?Hope is something we have as children,
It helps us thrive and try our hardest.
Hope is what we express in the worst of times
When all hope seems lost.
Hope is what people possess in life
To work toward our dreams.
Hope is a lie
That's not worth our time.
Puzzle heartYour heart is a complete puzzle; the pieces
that make the puzzle up are the things that
we love and mean the most to us in our life.
Sure the edge pieces of the puzzle aren't
going to be painful as the ones in the
middle because, those are the few things
that really mean the most to you and you
don't want to lose those pieces in your life.
You can try all you want to try to make a new
piece to fit in the place of where the old
one was or you can try to shove something
there to fill in the gap that piece left but
after the piece is gone you can replace no
matter what you do because nothing is the
same with out that one single piece. It was
the once piece of the whole puzzle that kept
holding everything together in your life.
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